Sunday, November 26, 2006

messy messy

First of all, I just want to share that I've got my first job. It's a job for an opera play and the cast is small which means more stage exposure. Haha. Anyway, for most people this would seem as a hassle. But I think that it's kinda fun especially the walk and trip to Makati for rehearsals. And this I have to say, I'm starting to get attached to the people in the play (to think it's just been two days). Haha. And after rehearsals, we get to eat a lot because of too much physical activity (the trip to the place and rehearsals). Woohoo.

Anyway, I auditioned last saturday for another production and I got callbacks. On one hand, I'm happy that I got callbacks because it means I'm one step closer to reaching my goal of being part of High School Musical. Also, my other friends would be there. On the other hand, I wish I just did not get callbacks because it would mean that I might have to drop the opera play. Crap.

Hopefully, they allow me to do both. Woohoo, it's as if I don't have studies. Great.

Oli was telling me about how she is attached to our little gang in Rep. I agree, I feel the same way too. I'm gonna miss those guys when I graduate. Hahaha. :p

Sunday, November 19, 2006

stuck... and i can't get out of it

Come on now! Are you freaking serious?! That's all I want to say to myself.

I have just finished reading a friend's blog and I'm just really frustrated. Here's the deal. I'm in Bio. That means that I have two options. Either be a medicine student or biology teacher. But since I don't think being a biology teacher is really my calling, that's out of the window. So now, I'm stuck with being a doctor and that's ten years from now.

Three years ago, I had no idea on what I wanted to be. I could have taken the easy road and just shifted to ME and be a manager of some company then start my own business. Heck, I can crunch those numbers well anyway. But I didn't. I stuck to bio and now, shifting is out of the question. But the thing is, I realized I wanted to be a person in entertainment (art, music, theatre or what have you). But it's too late for that.

When you have finally found that one thing that you know YOU SHOULD do, the circumstances suddenly don't seem to be on your side. I'm hating it whenever I have to study freaking circles under the microscope and name them. I enjoy it when I perform and sing and learn. That for me is the most important thing... I learn. And the reason for that is my openness to learning the craft.

I used to say that I wanted to be a doctor because I wanted to take care of my family and friends. But I think I've changed. I'm starting to become materialistic. I have to flush this out of my system.

Anyway, I'm just hoping that it's true that God has a plan for us because I really want to be assured that I am going to have an okay life in the future. So that's it. Good luck to me.

gambling isn't all that bad

Here we go peeps! I have bets with different people just make me motivated for the sem to come. Woohoo.

The one with paul and jordan is just about being DL. Nothing is really hanging on the line. It's more of a deal between people.

Next, we have the one with Karen which she is currently backing out on 'coz she feels I might actually get higher then her this sem (as if that's gonna happen). Anyway, it was supposed to be that the loser treats the winner to dinner in Circles. Hahaha.

Last, we have the one with Mian and Bym where the one with the lowest QPI gets to be called 'bobo' for a sem. Isn't that dandy and fine huh?! Wahaha.

So that's all for now. Oh yeah, I'm having a difficult time deciding on what songs to sing for the auditions. This is freaking crazy. Crazy I tell you! Crazy!

click

dang. i never thought i would cry by watching click. well, i did. waaah, to think that it is about family and all that. haaay... I guess I'm just scared to be like adam sandler because doctors seem to have no time for the children.

here we go

The auditions are fast approaching and five of us will be there. I am nervous because I have no idea what to expect. But it's okay since I'll be auditioning with sabbers, ernestine, bymo, and carol. Haha. I hope we all get in *crosses-fingers* so we could have more bonding moments.

Oh yeah, I wanna watch Happy Feet. Hahaha. Cute penguins!

i wanna cry because

I just talked to a friend and he has amats and I don't. Haha. I wanna drink right now and there's nothing in the fridge. sucky. i'm like one week out of it. waaahh... bad feeling. that's it.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

tribute to the first years

I just realized that I haven't really written about them so far. Thus, I decided to write about them. Haha. Okay, the usual group consists of six people. These are the people who are always present when we go out. But there are others who also come at times so that makes us like around eleven.

I have to write about this 'coz I find it freaking hilarious.
1. I have a bet with two friends from BS psych on who will get the highest QPI. So basically, the one who gets the lowest QPI will be called 'bobo' for one sem. It's just so sad to be called that. Haha... but we find it funny (considering it's someone else who gets called that).

2. The six people who I said normally came (including me) have this BEAM challenge. It's where you sing the BEAM theme song without laughing. And we invented different levels for it. As of now we have four and I'm the only one who has reached the fourth level. Basta... it's really really funny. A while ago, we were doing it in the middle of G4 while waiting for the sundo to pick us up. Wahaha.

3. Okay, I just have to say that we are all 'makapal' and we can't back out on dares. Backing out on dares is just a no-no. Anyway, while we were in timezone, we decided to play pranks on people. There was this guy who was playing the basketball thing and two friends of mine went up to him to ask if he was LA Tenorio. Then these two friends of mine would shout that LA Tenorio was there. Then the rest of us would go to him and ask him for autographs. I was the one telling them to take a pic with the supposed LA guy. Haha funny. We also did one on a guy playing a boxing game (Manny Pacquiao anyone?).

4. We were in the MRT and since it was a long trip there, my freaking kulit friend suddenly wants to form a circle an sing. Uhhh... so we did. We had our circle and we were singing HSM songs and even Christmas songs. Hahaha. We also dared each other to shout "Go Manny!" or "Para Sa'yo and Laban na Ito" or "Mabuhay ang Pilipinas!" Just so you know, we actually did it. Oh yeah, we also said goodbye to everyone who was leaving the train (and hello to the ones entering). They must have thought we were crazy. Haha.

5. Oh yeah, instead of watching Casino Royale, we ended up watching Huwag Kang Lilingon. 'Coz they thought the Bond guy was ugly. 4 girls on 2 boys. We lost. Haha. We ended up shouting the whole time.

So there, we actually did all that in a day. My crazy friends are the best. They're just as crazy as me which makes it all the more better.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

a day in school... make that two days

So classes have already started and it's been going well considering that I have only been there for only two days. I've been seeing a lot of people already and I'm going out this Friday and Saturday (wahahaha... so much for being serious).

Anyway, my history class is so-so but I guess I can deal with it since history hasn't been a problem subject of mine. Then there's philosophy. Well, as some of you may know I have a different teacher and so I had to accept whatever it is that comes my way. We have labor trials... uhh... okay. The only thing good about it is that I have okay groupmates. Great. Haha. Microbiology lecture is kinda boring but hey at least I get to bug Issa and Gel from time to time just because I have nothing else to do. Haha. Cel and Mol Bio lab is the subject I hate the most. Dapat is such an uptight, weird, irritating teacher. In other words, I don't like him. Oh yeah, and I got groupmates who I don't even know (they're all seniors except for Fil).

Second day... cel mol lec is okay. I met a new friend. Haha. He coincidentally is also a friend of King. That's why I thought he was familiar. Then foreign lang. It was okay. The teacher is okay. Nothing special. Except for the fact that the girl who lost my grammy jacket is my blockmate (and seatmate... can that get any worse?).

So there... only microbiology lab is left and I'd have met my teachers already after that. This sem seems to be promising. It should be!!! I have bets/dares/deals with Paul, Karen, Jordan and (insert name of anyone who will dare me again). I'm gonna be DL. Just you wait!

finale for the mind

Trying to get over someone (was/is/will) never (be) easy.
It (taked/takes/will) take time, patience, and even sacrifice.
Hmmm...
But if you think she's the one, why even try getting over her?

She's the one... no questions asked.

Trying to be her man (was/is/will) never (be) easy.
It (taked/takes/will) take time, patience, and even sacrifice.
And I am willing to go through all that.
Finally.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

name game

Okay... i missed this. but i just want to write about it before I prepare for my hosting job. If you call me...

RJ: You are one of my uncles or aunts (father's side)
Kuya RJ: You are my cousin (father's side)
Rafa: You are either my teacher in art during fourth year high school or Uzzi
Raf: You are either my high school tennis coach (Gee) or one of my teammates in HS
Carandang: You were a grade school classmate
Jacob: You have been a classmate of mine in high school
Jay-R and B: You are either Bym or Paje
Puzzler: You are David (high school classmate)
Loser/Pangit: You are David (college buddy)
J-boy: You are my high school classmate, my uncle or aunt (mother's side), the friend of my high school classmates, one of my college friends who find it cute to still call me by that kiddie name (Chols, Mags, Kor, Paul, etc.)
Bata: You are Ann who thinks I'm a kid
Usher friend: You are sanndra (you rock! hahahha).
Jay: You are my cousin (mother's side), a college friend, or rep person

So there... I especially like Jay-R and B, J-boy, Puzzler, Usher friend and Bata (kidding about the bata).:p

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

auditions and having a grudge

Auditions are coming soon (as in 4 days away soon). Me and mah friends are preparing for it already eventhough there's like three of us (from last sem's play) who are auditioning. I don't know if there are others but that's who I know so far (i'm considering those whom i'm close to in the previous cast). So there. We have been looking scavenging for minus ones from 12 til now because we just found out we can't sing a capella. Hahaha. Booya!

I already got my songs so it's all good. I'm nervous. Sana I get in 'coz it's like a big thing. And it being a big thing is a big thing for me. Haha.

On another note, watched The Grudge 2 with some friends. Man, was it freaky. I hate that movie, my friend and I were freaked in a lot of parts. I hate those ghosts. I even imagined them last night. I'm such a child

Sunday, November 05, 2006

adapting... but then again no

I told myself to change my voice to adapt to the production. High and very mousey.

Then, I realized... I would be the one having a hard time if I actually get a part with that type of voice.

I'll just stick to my own voice. Haha.

waiting for endlessness

Patience is not mine
It is only borrowed
I'm tired
Of waiting for nothing

Shall it come in time?
There is not enough time
And fatigue has set in
and I worry

There is nothing
No more patience
No more time
No more energy

Only insanity is left
That is the only thing
I can hold on to
I'm trying my best

Pardon the crazy fool for thinking
Hoping the insanity saves him
In this endlessness that is felt
You are felt

finding your old self

You have let him down thinking
You were the only one he can depend on
The kid looked up to you
You were what he idolized

But you let him down
And now the confusion is in him
You used to make him laugh
You always protected him

And now, you don't seem you
You have changed
You are more apart than you think
He has looked up to you

But you let him down
And he wants the old you back
You only make him weep
Please come back... please

flames and tears

Days when the mind and body
just cannot take anymore
And you have filled yourself
with too much

You burst into flames
It will eat you up
Sometimes wishing it will
remove itself from you

These days you douse yourself
in water to let it die
But the flames never stop
It continues to live in you

You wait for the day
When you break from yourself
And hope that your tears
will extinguish the fire

on sundays

For most people, Sunday is family day. But for me, it's the day I'd rather be away from my family. I hate it when I have to go to mass just because (yes, that's the reason... just because i have to). I've told them time and again that I do not want to go to church because I'd end up daydreaming and not listening to whatever the priest is saying. So in other words, it's useless.

Anyway, Sundays would usually mean having arguments for the longest time until either me or my dad gives up. But since we both think we're right (eventhough he's not... haha), we end up not resolving the issue. This means that we just can't wait for the next week to have another fight. Gaaahhh... I'm hating this day. I'm not ranting about my current situation. I'm just telling a story. If words can shout... these words would be popping out of the screen right now.

Friday, November 03, 2006

hosting and stuff

I went to meet with some people regarding this debut that I am supposed to be co-hosting with two other people plus a DJ. Haha. The debut seems to be fun since we have to dress up in formal clothes (blazers and all that) but we have to be in denim pants. Anyway, the people I met with have this company that kinda organizes events uch as concerts, functions, or such events. And they're telling me I should try hosting to earn money while I'm young. Actually, that's not a bad idea if I think about it. Everything is about experience and I need as much exposure as I can get. Booya!

Anyway, I just feel like I am in such a wrong course right now. But on the other hand, I think I'm gonna regret not pursuing my current course. So there. I guess the entertainment side of my life will just be a sideline. You know what, this is a good thing. At least the medical side of my life is getting a little sympathy from me. I'm not shutting it out as much as before. Why? 'Coz a lot of my friends are telling me to pursue it. Great.